I’m slowly killin’ myself
I’m trying so hard at the back of the shelf
It’s just the same every day
I’m writing these songs that will never get played
I get told what’s wrong and what’s right
I don’t have a romantic life
And everyone’s dying, so I keep on trying
To make ’em proud before they are gone
But can’t someone help me?
Oh, please, someone help me
I don’t care, anyone, anything
’Cause I’m so sick of being so lonely
Miss all my family
I don’t care, anyone, anything
’Cause I’m so sick of being so lonely
I’m spending more than I earn
Drink all the time to forget I’m not her
’Cause I go to parties sometimes
And I’ll kiss a boy and pretend for the night
’Cause I don’t know much about me
I’m still ashamed of who I used to be
So I try way too hard
But I still miss the mark to fit in
Fit in, woah!
Help me
Oh, please, someone help me
I don’t care, anyone, anything
’Cause I’m so sick of being so lonely
I miss all my family
I don’t care, anyone, anything
’Cause I’m so sick of being so lonely
I don’t care, anyone, anything
’Cause I’m so sick of being so lonely

I felt alive for a little while
But when I died
I had the time to notice
I was crushed by the weight of my own ego
But never honest enough to say it

I felt your love for a little while
But never had the guts
To give myself up
I said that I could be just what you wanted
As if I could ever keep a promise
As if I could ever keep a promise

You have eyes in every room
But you won’t see me, you won’t see me
You won’t see me walk away
Once I was
More than just a song to play
On your haunted tape
I don’t want to be away

Could have sworn
I heard you laughing in the doorway
I don’t like myself when I’m awake

I don’t like myself
When I’m awake

Sleeping on my own
Can’t forget
Leave me all alone
I’m okay

What are we after all?
’Cause I need someone to explain it
I never wanna feel that way again

I don’t know why I called
I guess I wanted to feel something
It’s only gonna break us in the end

All the kids have always known
That the emperor wears no clothes
But they bow down to him anyway
Because it’s better than being alone

I know you’ve never loved
The crinkles by your eyes when you smile
You’ve never loved your stomach or your thighs
The dimples in your back at the bottom of your spine
But I’ll love them endlessly

I won’t let these little things slip out of my mouth
But if I do, it’s you
Oh, it’s you, they add up to
I’m in love with you

Who’s that shadow holding me hostage?
I’ve been here for days
Who’s this whisper telling me that I’m never gonna get away?
I know they’ll be coming to find me soon
But I fear I’m getting used to being held by you

Could you love me while I hate myself?
Could you love me though I don’t deserve it?
Could you love me like there’s no one else?
Even though you know I can’t return it

Could you love me when the water’s rough?
Or when I leave you in a desert?
Could you love me though I speak with knives?
Knowing all too well that you’ll get hurt

If you can’t say yes just go
I’m more trouble than I’m worth

Could you love me while I hate myself?
Because I don’t know how this works
I never learned how this works

Don’t you know that I am right here?
Spinnin’ out, waitin’ for ya to pull me in