Advice for myself
You are a person. A breathing, hurting, longing person. And you deserve to be loved not when youβre easy, but especially when youβre not. You deserve to be held when youβre messy. You deserve to be chosen even when you canβt offer anything back.
Ethics is about seeing yourself more whole so you do not betray what you love through confusion or cowardice.
Being a slave to your desires and instincts is not freedom. True freedom comes from taming your animalistic urges and transcending the primal, amoralistic condition imposed to you by your imperfect human nature. Weβre all inherently ο¬awed and prone to degenerating to a lesser, nihilistic, dehumanized state of being. Self-imposed discipline from adhering to higher spiritual teachings (or even to a secular, yet ethically ο¬rm philosophy of life) is a never-ending struggle for self improvement and human completion.
Youβre better than that, King.
do not confuse responsibility for stress
You likely already know what you have to do. You just donβt have the empty space to let it simmer in remembrance and then crystallize into action.
Donβt let the AI read or write for you; unused muscles are quick to atrophy. Above all, seek wisdom.
donβt look for a relationship, look for truth
Walk more slowly if you can
you might ο¬nd your mental health improved by accepting the hopelessness of your situation, and the unlikelihood of it ever improving