Notes
a sourly bitter-sweet taste from orange wine lingers in my mouth. crumbs for the sparrows. wet footprints on a wooden ļ¬oor. a dip in late summer water. your skin warms to my touch. itās not time to leave yet. if only we never had to leave…
how much does it matter how we show love? when someone is delusional, they see it even in the most mundane things; conversely, when someone doesnāt believe they could be loved — no evidence is sufļ¬cient. lately, iām not sure if i still believe in love languages, attachment theories, etc. — i guess knowing oneself, being honest with oneself, and helping others achieve the same is what matters. but, idkā¦
how we feel loved by someone is multiplied by how much we respect that person
local-ļ¬rst and ofļ¬ine-ļ¬rst
Know the difference between those who stay to feed the soil and those who come to grab the fruit.
I felt fundamentally more secure in my ability to navigate difļ¬cult situations after my ļ¬rst psychotic break down at 19
Thereās a degree of gamiļ¬cation that comes in every interaction after that which says ānone of this actually matters when you can survive at the bottomā
i like perfumes… but of all the scents, i think, the smell of your sweaty skin after morning yoga is one of my favorites
Sometimes I feel like Iām the worst kind of person.
There are those aggressive business people who accept āthe gameā and use its rules to beneļ¬t from it, and there are people who choose the opposite end — refusing to accept āthe gameā and sacriļ¬cing comfort to preserve integrity.
And then there are āthe middle onesā like me — we keep the system running for just enough money so we can continue, but not enough to ever escape it.
To make things worse — Iām aware of it, yet I still continue.
The worst kind.
thinking about hands lately
hands in general
but mainly yours
what to do with a desire that has nowhere to go? desire is ecstasy only when reciprocated. otherwise, itās suffering.
similarly, when someone desires you but you do not desire them, that is also suffering.
if itās mutual, the desire multiplies and grows exponentially. if itās not, suffering multiplies and grows exponentially.