05 may, 2023

I will try to change the vibe of my writings a bit. I have read a few recent ones and noticed that I repeat myself quite a lot.

Perhaps it's better to focus on things that differentiate each day from the others, rather than on the thread of despair that connects them.

As part of the Anifilm festival, my mom and I attended a screening of the film "Tmění" (~ Darkening) which was in VR. The film tries to capture the feelings experienced by someone with depression. The VR experience was something new for me, which i something I can’t say about the emotions depicted in the film. I felt a bit dizzy from the VR, but wasn’t much impressed.

The mimosa and focaccia and the sunshine in the festival setting was huge mood lifter.

Later that day, we visited a theater that, for my taste, was too loud and didn't have much of a storyline. kinda meh. I was with my mom and "adopted sister" E, who replaced my brother, who was busy elsewhere. She’s such positive spirit, which is really refreshing..on the other hand I feel like sad old dude in the contrast.🥲

The rest of the night, which stretched until the early hours, I spent with A at the newly opened bar "Bylo, nebylo." We had various cocktails and talked about life and such. It was very pleasant... in fact, I really needed it. Especially since my breakup with A felt so draining at the time and couldn’t imagine an end of that pain, and knowing that we can talk and enthusiastically share our presence today is calming.

Take care 🌱

(I don't want this to be just a shallow description of events, but at the same time, I don't want to trauma dump everything I have inside. idk, we'll see)